Work faster! God damn it's a zoo in there...
I don't think you any nicer to me than anyone else, but I get a lot of grief so from my POV it's a blessing. I try to stay positive, remind myself we are all related...
I don't hate porn because I read somewhere that I should. I only ever form my own opinions. I hate porn (and those other things) because they have fucked with me, and I don't like being fucked with. I had a period in my life where I was very, very confused. I had voices in my head (DID, not Schizoid), I did a lot of very, very strong drugs, and I was quite young. I entered a state of mind where I became a sexual degenerate. I don't want to get to detailed, but lets just say I got bit by a very bad bug. I take no responsibility for these bad thoughts that found their way into my head. It is far more likely that I have been coerced into having such horrible thoughts, and not that they are a product of some illness I had. They weren't my fault, and that wasn't me. It is a thing I learned from the Buddhists, that we are not in full ownership if whatever happens to come floating into our heads. And during this period I had a clear pornography addiction. It started kinda innocent, but followed the same path as any unhealthy relationship with an object. I watched more and more, worse and worse and worse pornography. It deeply affected my ability to function and cope day to day. I would see a girl, and a terrible thought would creep into my head, and then I would be ashamed and scared. It was devastating me. And all the while leading me more and more into becoming a sexual degenerate. It disgusts me now to look back. The only positive is that I won that fight. I carry the scars, but I won it. I realized that porn was very destructive, and could lead to huge changes in your life. The more I researched it (know your enemy) the more I came to understand that the porn industry, while not being charming at it's outset, had been co opted. That the same forces that had gotten into the Pharmaceuticals (that is what Pharma means, drugs that mommy says are OK as opposed to drugs she says are not), gotten into the food production, education, banking, you name it... Not that there is an evil cabal in charge, but that whoever we put in charge is evil. I don't think all these people get together and plan their evil deeds, they just do what they do. It is not organized, but as a warrior for Good, my enemy is anyone who decides to be evil. Regardless of any other factor. That porn now was a far different thing than glossy magazines you snuck into your buddies dad's basement to see. It was ubiquitous, ever more domineering, and constantly inventing new lows to scrape.
That is where I form my opinions, my life experiences. That is why it is harder for me to prove my points, because I just have to ramble. And as much as I'm hoping you will at least try to get through and understand this rant, there are others here who will think it disingenuous, and not hesitate to tell me so...
I'm sure the reasons you think I might hate America and drugs and stuff are relevant. I hate TV for the exact same reasons I hate drugs. All we have in this adventure with any real fixable value is limited time and energy, yes? So TV wants you to waste your valuable time and energy so that they can make money letting other people try to coerce and device you into spending your money. I am not a fan of anything that is nothing but a waste of time and brain power. And again it is based on my life. If I have to hear one more stupid kid repeating a line from a movie while all his idiot friends laugh along, I swear to Allah! You know how much better I would be at guitar if I didn't know everything that ever happened on the Simpsons? Even the internet, did you get to see that great article in the Atlantic a little while ago about how the internet is unfortunately rewiring our brains? How this medium (and TV before it) is so captivating, and moves at such a speed, that we train ourselves not to be able to comprehend slower processes. Pretty well written. And it can't be untrue. People react to changing situations, and there is no way for our neurology to maintain some state over generations. That isn't to say that we should be 1995 model humans forever, but that if the changes in our brains and ability to adhere to reality are negative, detrimental, then we have a problem.
I hope this in some way helps to answer what I took to be a refreshingly honest question. I know I can go on, and not make sense while I go...
And all this talk about hatred. It needs to be a point that humans are so complex as to sometimes appear contradictory. In that sense, I carry a lot of hatred. A lot. A fucking hell of a lot. But all my hatred is because I don't like seeing people get taken advantage of, lied too. My hatred itself is a positive, because of what I hate. Is hatred of Nazis the same as hatred of Jews? I could make the point that it is, but do you get what I mean? And so please let me disclaim. Although I talked at length about hatred, the real answer can only be love. Love, love, love. Bum ba bum! We are all brothers and sisters, we are all in this together. We need far less division and disagreement, and far more respect for one another. That I hate, but only because of how much I love. I love the trees, and the hideous Day Star. I love being able to take part in this grand adventure. I love bickering with atheists. I hate porn though...
What do you think?
Thanks,
-Pip
I don't think you any nicer to me than anyone else, but I get a lot of grief so from my POV it's a blessing. I try to stay positive, remind myself we are all related...
I don't hate porn because I read somewhere that I should. I only ever form my own opinions. I hate porn (and those other things) because they have fucked with me, and I don't like being fucked with. I had a period in my life where I was very, very confused. I had voices in my head (DID, not Schizoid), I did a lot of very, very strong drugs, and I was quite young. I entered a state of mind where I became a sexual degenerate. I don't want to get to detailed, but lets just say I got bit by a very bad bug. I take no responsibility for these bad thoughts that found their way into my head. It is far more likely that I have been coerced into having such horrible thoughts, and not that they are a product of some illness I had. They weren't my fault, and that wasn't me. It is a thing I learned from the Buddhists, that we are not in full ownership if whatever happens to come floating into our heads. And during this period I had a clear pornography addiction. It started kinda innocent, but followed the same path as any unhealthy relationship with an object. I watched more and more, worse and worse and worse pornography. It deeply affected my ability to function and cope day to day. I would see a girl, and a terrible thought would creep into my head, and then I would be ashamed and scared. It was devastating me. And all the while leading me more and more into becoming a sexual degenerate. It disgusts me now to look back. The only positive is that I won that fight. I carry the scars, but I won it. I realized that porn was very destructive, and could lead to huge changes in your life. The more I researched it (know your enemy) the more I came to understand that the porn industry, while not being charming at it's outset, had been co opted. That the same forces that had gotten into the Pharmaceuticals (that is what Pharma means, drugs that mommy says are OK as opposed to drugs she says are not), gotten into the food production, education, banking, you name it... Not that there is an evil cabal in charge, but that whoever we put in charge is evil. I don't think all these people get together and plan their evil deeds, they just do what they do. It is not organized, but as a warrior for Good, my enemy is anyone who decides to be evil. Regardless of any other factor. That porn now was a far different thing than glossy magazines you snuck into your buddies dad's basement to see. It was ubiquitous, ever more domineering, and constantly inventing new lows to scrape.
That is where I form my opinions, my life experiences. That is why it is harder for me to prove my points, because I just have to ramble. And as much as I'm hoping you will at least try to get through and understand this rant, there are others here who will think it disingenuous, and not hesitate to tell me so...
I'm sure the reasons you think I might hate America and drugs and stuff are relevant. I hate TV for the exact same reasons I hate drugs. All we have in this adventure with any real fixable value is limited time and energy, yes? So TV wants you to waste your valuable time and energy so that they can make money letting other people try to coerce and device you into spending your money. I am not a fan of anything that is nothing but a waste of time and brain power. And again it is based on my life. If I have to hear one more stupid kid repeating a line from a movie while all his idiot friends laugh along, I swear to Allah! You know how much better I would be at guitar if I didn't know everything that ever happened on the Simpsons? Even the internet, did you get to see that great article in the Atlantic a little while ago about how the internet is unfortunately rewiring our brains? How this medium (and TV before it) is so captivating, and moves at such a speed, that we train ourselves not to be able to comprehend slower processes. Pretty well written. And it can't be untrue. People react to changing situations, and there is no way for our neurology to maintain some state over generations. That isn't to say that we should be 1995 model humans forever, but that if the changes in our brains and ability to adhere to reality are negative, detrimental, then we have a problem.
I hope this in some way helps to answer what I took to be a refreshingly honest question. I know I can go on, and not make sense while I go...
And all this talk about hatred. It needs to be a point that humans are so complex as to sometimes appear contradictory. In that sense, I carry a lot of hatred. A lot. A fucking hell of a lot. But all my hatred is because I don't like seeing people get taken advantage of, lied too. My hatred itself is a positive, because of what I hate. Is hatred of Nazis the same as hatred of Jews? I could make the point that it is, but do you get what I mean? And so please let me disclaim. Although I talked at length about hatred, the real answer can only be love. Love, love, love. Bum ba bum! We are all brothers and sisters, we are all in this together. We need far less division and disagreement, and far more respect for one another. That I hate, but only because of how much I love. I love the trees, and the hideous Day Star. I love being able to take part in this grand adventure. I love bickering with atheists. I hate porn though...
What do you think?
Thanks,
-Pip
